Seán O.
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"It was right around this time two years ago that I woke up and found
that Ben had died quietly and peacefully in his sleep on June 6, 2012.
Before Ben died I never could have imagined how painful life would be
without him. People often assume my life is hard now because I'm a
single father of three children with special medical needs. But raising
the kids on my own is mostly a challenge in terms of logistical issues,
and it feels like logistics are fairly easy to deal with
.
"For me, the hard part, the deep pain, comes from no longer sharing my
life with Ben. It seems impossible to describe with words what it feels
like to live each day in the reality that he's gone forever. I
realized yesterday that there's a sadness that's always with me, it's
always there to some degree. It just is.
"At the same time,
continuing life without Ben has taught me so much about how wonderful
love is when we have it. I often think of all the things I would have
done different when Ben was alive had I known then what I know now. We
had a great relationship and shared deep, unconditional love for each
other. Yet, I realize now there was so much more that was possible
between us.
"I don't have any regrets but it's interesting to
discover through death so much about living and loving. More than
anything what I've come to believe is that when we slow down and sit
calmly in life we always have more love we can share. Love is one of
the few things in life we never have to fear running out of and that we
always can share abundantly. There's always more love inside us.
Always."
Tom Armentrout-Wiswall
